Hello. I am new to this site and am not sure exactly how it works. I wrote two posts and cannot find either of them now. I am a working single mother of three, (4,6,and 15) and am an ESE teacher(fancy way of saying I teach children with behavior disorders.) I live pay check to pay check, and although I am grateful for my job, I am always struggling. Even though I make enough to survive, I make too much for assistance, and not enough for anything extra. I don't receive any help from my children's father due to him being unemployed. It is not my desire to blame anyway; this is where I am at.
My plight that brings me here today, is my desperate plea for help with a couple of presents for my children for Christmas. I have direct deposit and my account was used fraudently, and it is now wiped out and in the red. While the bank is investigating the suspected fraud, (which is my burden to prove)I have no money or access to anything. My family is unable to help and I am not sure where to turn. I don't attend Church and would feel too hypocritical to seek help from one when I don't even attend or support a church at this time.
I noticed after reading many of the posts, that I am in a much better position than some of the members who have posted on here. Am I wrong to ask for help? I don't know if there is a line that defines the desperate, from the truly desperate. My thoughts are this: I give back everyday by working with the population of children I do. I know it is my job, but believe me when I say, college never prepared you or even expected ESE teachers to face the challenges they currently do in today's classroom. I didn't know I would have to worry for my physical safety on a daily basis. Or spend more time diffusing conflicts than teaching. I apologize for the pitty party, but the burn out rate is six years in this field, and this my eleventh. It is also the first year I was considering getting out of this field. Great timing considering the economy!:) I think my biggest gripe is that I give everything to kids who don't necessarily care, only to have nothing left emotionally for my own children when I get home. Patience is almost non-existent and I shamefully say, just want to be left alonefor the first hour at home. I obviously, have veered off topic here, but I guess it is my way of justifying my posting for help in the first place.
Well, to that I now say that I am an honest and genuine person. I work and still could use help, due to unfortunate circumstances. If someone feels I deserve a chance just as much as the unemployed mother please let me know. If not, well, whatever doesn't break you..makes you stronger. I truly believe that..it just would be nice to celebrate something good without it being so hard. Thanks for reading!!
